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For me, this Pride Month is a look back on all my favorite ships and how each one has brought me something special.

With Sanvers, I took a deeper look into a world I hadn’t truly sought out before.

With Gabrielle and Xena, I know I want a love that endures all.

With Maya and Carina, well, they helped me through some of the worst moments in my life.

I stumbled upon this ship when it first arrived on scene, but I knew it was a Shondaland series, and left before I could get attached. Years later, in January 2022, my Nana who I was close with got Covid, and we lost her.

Funnily enough, I choose to watch Station 19 because in my misery, I thought being miserable with this TV show I wouldn’t care about hating later because of what it reminded me of, wouldn’t matter. I thought I’d walk away, and think about my grief whenever this show was brought up again.

Alas, fate had other ideas.

I fell in love with these characters.

Mostly, Carina’s grief plotline with her brother. The raw grief and screams were moments I understood so clearly at that time in my life.

From there, my life spiraled out of control.

But moments of happiness were brought by this couple, with two actresses who love their characters, and the fandom dearly fighting everyday.

Don’t get me wrong.

This couple has its flaws, as does the writing, but for better or worse, I love their story.

Flaws and all.

Maya reminds me of myself from time to time. The need to win, to be the best, the mental health issues. Her drive to move up in life.

Carina’s warmth and heart are everything.

I first watched their scenes together on YouTube and I was hooked. I ended up watching the show, solely to see more of them. To understand all the context.

One of the things that moved me about this couple was the lack of love at first sight.

The moment Carina in her green card interview said that when she saw Maya, she knew she was going to sleep with her – I loved that.

I liked the take that they hooked up with each other and when they did, they found something they weren’t expecting, and kept coming back to each other. I loved the slower build into something more.

Yes, I’m aware we didn’t see the slow build exactly, but I love that it wasn’t love at first sight.

It was lust.

And sometimes, relationships build from that. I loved it.

I even loved that for Maya, the non- romantic one, she felt differently.

She expected Carina to say something romantic during the interview, she – herself – said something romantic about that night, when she said she knew Carina was the person she wanted to call.

I loved that Maya romantsizes that night.

That she looks back on it with rose-colored glasses that are so completely gone for her wife.

While Carina is the realist and is like, ‘I totally wanted to sleep with her.’

I love the little touches the actresses bring to their moments together. Even when the scene isn’t about them, they stick close, and add little touches bringing to life this romance.

As a fandom we are blessed by the care and consideration of Maya and Carina.

The love and happiness shared by these two characters brought me a sort of hope, I wasn’t sure I could feel.

Hope that things do go wrong, bad things happen, people come and go, but getting up and trying your best to find love and hope in the world is the best thing for you.

Thank you to Maya and Carina, to Stefania and Danielle, and to Station 19.

You arrived when I needed you most.

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