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What the hell?!?!?!?!

Where have these writers been this entire show?

Like they figured out actual drama, made the main couple the main couple, called back to important character pieces, set up foreshadowing, paid off the foreshadowing, and framed the entire episode with pacing and drama!

Like I watched the whole thing through. I cannot tell you the last time I watched a full episode of Station 19.

But Maya and Carina were held up this episode.

It was like the Mason and Maya episode without the terrible ending.

Except the ending was terrible because of the drama of the moment! But it was also amazing to see Maya and Carina being featured as they should have been this entire time!

The other characters were able to acknowledge their relationship.

They were allowed to acknowledge their relationship and their worries. Their hopes.

All of which came true in the final moment of the episode! We’ve been waiting and hoping and wishing for Carina to get her dream. We’re right there with her worrying over the results, thinking it may never happen, and they may be forced to give up two dreams. To have a little Carina and for Carina to experience pregnancy.

We’re agonizing with Maya as she tries to console and be there for her wife in a way she wasn’t last season.

We’re not in the moment where Maya is going to flip out instead of comforting her wife. Instead, she’s right there with her. She’s waiting in the kitchen, she’s reminding her that the baby expert herself said it was too early for an at home test. So there’s no reason to panic yet.

We’re freaking out alongside Carina at the end as the thing buffers.

But we’re also freaking the hell out because we know what she doesn’t!

Maya is in danger.

The fear she voiced not a handful of episodes might be coming true.

Carina’s worst fear she voiced in season five to Emmett about her stomach dropping and worrying for her wife. The thing we could see her freaking out over before texting Maya from their bedroom.

Calmed by knowing her wife was fine at the moment.

Carina has lost so much and so many people. Her wife is her home and it’s surrounded by burning flames right now, trying to swallow her whole.

While Carina finds out what they and we have been waiting for since season five – they’re pregnant!

They’re going to have a baby!

All the work and tears and healing to get to that moment. Could be ripped away in a few seconds by a fire.

Like damn.

That’s some top tier main couple shit right there.

And I’m here for it as long as Maya survives, because if she doesn’t, I’ll lead the charge against the writers and ABC myself. Like wtf?

Don’t kill her.

I’m so serious.

It’s so good in terms of drama and writing and if they could have written like this all season and all series… whew. It’d would have been a less annoying ride! That’s for sure!

But instead, let’s talk about all the wonderful things we got this episode!

We got that opening scene.

I didn’t need Travis or the other couple.

But there were tongues and touching and kissing and they were on top of each other, and I really enjoyed it. That scene was pure good.

We had the kitchen scene!

I was so excited for the fandom to get the mutual ‘I love you’ more than I was for myself, if that makes any sense.

I loved their little moment together as Maya gently voiced her worry.

I love that Carina was like I will not stop doing my job, even with a baby, or a wife, or another baby. But Maya is over there like, I’m not asking you to not do your job, I’m saying let’s do it at the hospital. FAR FROM THE FIRE.

Which like I agree.

For both of you.

Carina headed off to help people.

She was able to worry about 19 getting called in and another character acknowledged why it might be frightening.

I love Stefania’s acting choices too.

She portrayed Carina as caught between professional and concerned spouse. Something that the Chief could also understand. Which was nice.

The Chief has now seemingly forgotten about what happened between her and Maya, moving on. As she later directed Maya to Carina, who clearly wanted to be anywhere but the briefing room.

She totally wanted to be with her wife.

I loved the little mantra between them. Something they seem to have clearly said to each other before and I love how they’ve moved so far forward this season after last season. Their near destruction was not in vain. And that’s amazing.

Carina puts on a brave face with her wife.

But everyone can clearly tell she’s freaking out too.

A wildfire is nothing like a house fire and vice versa. They each come with unique dangers.

I loved that this season has decided to give Carina doctor things to do. I mean, better late than never, I guess. But either way, I love that she’s such a badass.

She may be an OBGYN, but she’s got a lot of skills and talent. Able to adapt and help people with ease no matter the situation.

I did love how she froze when talking to the spouse though.

How am I supposed to live without them?

An excellent question even posed by the title of the episode as well.

One Carina cannot answer.

Because she doesn’t have the answer.

The entire season has been foreshadowing Maya being in peril. Setting it up. And I’ve been wondering if it was all for nothing. It wouldn’t be the first time that things have been set in place only to never be used by this show. So I wasn’t sure.

But we’ve led up to the moment.

We had a moment of self-reflection from Maya with Andy as they resumed their friendship like the whole show never happened.

“Monogamy is for the weak.” “Or for the very, very dedicated, is what I said.” Maya retorts gleefully.

And I went back and watched that episode afterward last night.

How would that Maya react to seeing herself seven years later?

She’d freak to know she has a wife and a kid with another on the way and is terrified of dying now. Something I don’t think scared her before.

I think she accepted it as fact.

Death on the job could happen. To her.

To anyone.

But in season three we learned that Maya has an interesting relationship to death. She was waiting for it to set her free. To finally rest and relax and love in the afterlife whatever that may be.

She wasn’t actively seeking death.

But she didn’t mind if it happened, because ‘eyes forward is exhausting.’

Except she’s no longer that person.

Maybe Maya chose firefighting because it would release her from her obligations. To her father. To everything he ingrained in her while giving her an exit she could deal with.

Except things have changed.

She heard Diane when she told her she didn’t have to wait for death.

She could live now.

So she has.

She’s clawed and bleed and healed for the life she has. For her wife. For their son. For their children to be.

And she wants to be there. She wants it all with her wife. The house, the home, the family, and all the things that come with it.

Her job?

It’s a job.

She loves it and enjoys it. But dying for it is no longer something she can accept.

Maya has learned to live.

Right as death has come knocking.

Like damn. I would have written some shit like that.

Except the good news with me, is that I usually promise happy endings. Life is depressing enough.

All of their scenes were perfect.

Carina freaking out at home. Talking to Liam in Italian.

She had no right to look as attractive as she did, sitting on the bed looking all worried, and then super happy to be chatting with her wife. Only for her son to decide he wanted to shout for his Mama. Because she will never be Mommy. No. Just no.

Then she scoops him up looking far hotter and sexier than anyone should in the middle of the night holding an infant. Just damn.

Stefania is something else.

Did I miss any moments?

I think I covered everything I wanted to talk about. Now I just have to somehow survive until Thursday and then cope with the fact that they will no longer be gracing my screens unless someone saves them!

Please, give me a Marina spin-off. I will watch the hell out of it!

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